See how this goes,,

[hypotoo]

Let's see if we can lower the drama a notch or two. You've made a jump from a suspicious lesion to death, and all in a year's time. BSC must be very aggressive on your planet. Here on earth it's the most common cancer, and one of the easiest to cure. Of course yours hasn't even been diagnosed and you're planning your funeral. Back it down a notch cowboy.

Yep, you might actually have a cancer. Will it kill you? Nope, but you'll work yourself into a big tizzy over it, and the stress might do the job the cancer couldn't.

Take a deep breath, adjust your meds, and talk to your therapist.

Stop the catastrophic thinking, and stop trying to predict the future. Remember you're a hypochondriac, and your ability to actually see the future sucks.

I understand your anxiety, and I believe you have a reason to be nervous. Even a non-hypo would be anxious over a skin biopsy. But, being anxious, and being paralyzed by fear are two entirely different things.

You'll deal with whatever life brings you... but wait for the delivery.

[busaboy]

Ok, i hear what your saying,, and at times, (brief times) i can deal with it,,

But just being a hypo was bad enough, now the thing that i fear is POSSIBLY,,(yes i know its only possible) for real.

The consultant said basal, but until i have had the results it could be anything, basal, squamas, or even nothing!!.

But the fear is there, and when it starts to take hold there doesnt seem to be anything i can do to stop it.

I actually work in a hospital and see these things everyday, i see people getting better, i also see people getting worse, alot worse.

Maybe i am in the wrong job, but we all know these things happen.

How can i stop these negative thoughts???????????

[hypotoo]

You may not be able to stop the negative thoughts. We all have negative thoughts. You can however learn to ignore the negative thoughts.

Hypochondriacs ruminate over negative thoughts. We play the scenarios over and over in our mind. Each replay tends to be worse than the last. We watch these self created movies so many times we become convinced that they are in fact reality. In other words we're a victim of our own negative propaganda.

One technique I've found effective is to occupy my mind with other more pleasant distractions. Get out of the house and go do something you enjoy. See a movie. Go shopping. Go exercise. Go for a walk in the park. Build a model airplane. Paint a picture. Write a novel. Play a video game. Whatever.

One can also replace the negative movies with positive movies. Imagine the doctor saying, "Nothing to worry about, it was benign."

[busaboy]

Today i have had my biopsy, i didnt feel to bad about to be honest, now dont get me wrongi have been to hell and back in my head the past few weeks, (read my other posts). my main fear is that is isn't basal cell,,, its that it might be somthing more sisnister.

My face looks a bit of a mess at the mo, blood and new stitches,,
to be expected i suppose.

Anyway i will get my biopsy results in 3-4 weeks. here's hoping. fingers crossed etc, etc.

[busaboy]

Well i still havent had my results from my biopsy but, thats ok as i have a new worry,,, my eyes.

They havent felt great for months ,,, they feel kinda dry and itchy especially the right one,, its also very blurred at times.

I have been to the opticions twice and seen a doctor but they cant see anything wrong!!!!????


But me being me i have convccinced myself thaty i will probably be blind wiythin a year or so.....

Question?? why is it that no matter how many times i/we have these "illnesess" we think at the time that its THIS ONE thats the real one, the one thats really gonna do some harm, i mean i have been suffering with this hypochondria for about 2 years now and nearly every gtime my fears have benn unfounded,, (with the exception of the skin cancer thing which i am still waiting to hear the results about).

When will i ever learn?????????,, is it even possible i will/can???????

[busaboy]

Hi all, i had my eyes examined today at the eye clinic in the hospital.

She seemed to have a good look and procceded to tell that she can see no evidence of any retinal tear or detatchment,,, Phew!!!!!


My eyes are still blurry every now and then and i am still getting the "flashes" about a dozen times a day. but she said that "should" subside.

I went into the dermotology dept while i was there to get my results,, the receptionist said that since you havent heard anything it must be that everythings ok,,.

We shall see..

[busaboy]

Well here vagain, still getting "flashes" in my right eye. in fact i think they are getting worse!!

So once again mr panic has set in,,, and the thought of having to live with this or even worse the thought of going blind or having a brain tumour have raised thier ugly ugly head...

Worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry worry,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

[busaboy]

Brain tumour time,,, thats what i think anyway,,,, dizzyness, severe headache, lights in eyes,,, pain down side of face..

[busaboy]

10/5/10, eyes still getting worse,,, doctors say its stress and fatigue,, i honestly dont believe them,, now getting pain in my eye... oh and the "flashes" are happening more often.

[hypotoo]

Yes, the doctors are idiots. They've completely ignored the obvious symptoms in favor of their convenient diagnosis. Anxiety... poppycock. We know best. How dare them think that a medical education and experience qualifies them to diagnose us? We use Google by God, and that makes us smarter than them. Idiots. Fools.

We know we're dying and we won't be dissuaded.

[busaboy]

Ok, its been a couple of months,,, and,, its time to worry again, ,,,,about?? my brain,,,,,..

yes folks i now tjhink i have a brain tumour, why??? pain, lots of pain in the very top back of my head.. and the flashing in the corner of my eye and dizzyness.

And yes i have been to the doctors and he,,, ,,,laughed, "still" he says, didnt you have one of those before!!!!! not the answer i was expecting..

He did no checks and didnt really pay any attention to what i was saying,,, .

Maybe, just maybe he's right,, but the pains still there......

[busaboy]

Ok then, i am now feeling sick, and my armpits are hurting, i am sooo tired its beyond belief.

So far i havent googled my symptoms because i know its going to say bad things, and my dr just thinks its funny.

i shall keep going, but man its exhausting.

[busaboy]

It gets worse, now more tired than ever,,, head actually throbs when i go to bed at night, i can actually feel it pulsating.
And headache like i have never had before,
I am sleeping nearly all the time, and its hard to swallow.

[amy]

I can't remember if you've said you are seeing a therapist or psychiatrist or not. If you're not, you really, really need to see one. If you are, you really, really need to get in to see him or her ASAP. You may be, quite literally, worrying yourself to death! If you are thinking and worrying about dying 24/7, of course you feel sick. Of course you are tired. Of course your head and body aches. My heart goes out to you because I have been there, and it is definitely an ongoing struggle. But you have to get help so you can LIVE. You are not living right now, you are waiting to die. You don't want to look back on your life when you are 70 years old and realize that you wasted your whole life imagining your death.

[hypotoo]

Amy is 100% right.